January 22, 2013


I decided that this year I was going to try and be more positive. I used to be a pretty positive person- always looking at the glass half- full kinda lady. Things would go wrong and I would be its ok- things will work out. I’ve grown to miss that lady and really wanted to win her back. I want to be a happy positive influence in my kid’s lives. This year has gotten off on the wrong foot. It all started with me staying up all night New Year’s Eve with my sick Kobi. I litterly sat up all night since every time I tried to lie down he would cry. Luckily I was able to find a doctor that was open on New Year’s Day (why is it that there are more places closed on New Year’s Day then there is on Christmas- we need to get out priorities straight!) Poor baby had double ear infections. All 4 kids have been sick off and on- which usually means even less sleep for me. We aren’t even done with the first month of 2013 and this is what we have dealt with… both cars have broken down numerous times. And it’s not going to be a cheap fix. Luckily Skip’s older sister has a car we have been able to borrow- bless her heart. Evie has been waking up almost as often as Kobi does every night but of course it’s never at the same time- so sleep has become very rare. And when I’m tired it seems like nothing can go right. Yesterday I had it. The tire was a little low so I stopped at the gas station to fill it with air. It wouldn’t hold the air so I decided we better just go home, instead of to the IHop breakfast I had promised the kids. As I pulled out of the gas station I got a flat tire-like coming of the rim craziness. It was 15 degrees out and I had all four kids in the car. Don’t worry my Dad taught all us girls how to change a flat and I have done it numerous times- just never with a car full of crying/yelling kids. The spare ended up being flat. And I started to cry. Eric was out with me and he said Mom you don’t need to worry- I will pray and everything will be okay. Thank Heaven’s for the faith of a child. I was able to get some air in it but I was afraid to drive it to far so no IHop. The world pretty much ended for Lily and she made sure to make plenty of noise about it in the form of high pitched screams. It sucked big time- for majority of the day. Once Skip got home I grabbed Eric and we took off to Joann’s (my happy place) to get a zipper. Eric is the most wonderful little man in the world.
He knows when I am upset and tries his best to make me smile. He was telling me jokes and making me laugh. I looked over at him and said “Why was I lucky enough to get you for my son.” He looked at me with those big blue eyes and said “No Mom, I am the lucky one. Heavenly Father sent me to you because He knew that you would love me and take care of me the way I need to be.” My heart melted and again I cried. This time from the love of my 7 year old. My kids deserve the happy, positive lady I should be and can be. Things could be a lot worse than they are- so I’m going to count my blessings.


Annette said...

AWE!!! :`-( That made me cry. I'm sorry things have been rotten. BUT they wont stay that way. Loss of sleep can do that to you! Chin up darling and know you are doing great. Probably hitting some baby blues (my Dr. told me they can come anytime within the first year). Eric and you are both right. I think Heavenly Father put us all together so we could help lift each other. Try a temple session and see if that helps. I know it does me! I love you darling!

Unknown said...

Look How awesome you are Emma! Luckily for you you're not the only one in this world that needs to be more positive I think a lot of us do, but you're doing your best that's all anyone can ask for :) love ya!

Gourley Family said...

What a sweet boy! Hang in there!